Letter For Little Kelly
Kelly,
& nbsp; Hi! I’m so sad today, totally no mood. Today is the 2nd day you didn’t SMS with me. From the night on 11/5/2008, all our life changed. That day, while we SMS, you suddenly told me you are going out with friend. That time I don’t know who and I thought you were went out for a few hours. But, I’m wrong. I wait and wait until 8pm still didn’t receive any of your messages. I began to nervous and scare what had happened to you. So, I SMS you. Surprise, the message could not be delivered. My heartbeat increases and I’m too worry. I don’t wish anything happen on you. As I’m worry, I cried. Then, suddenly my phone rang and notices that the message had delivered. I’m so happy and stop crying. But, when I asked you why so late only message me, you told me when you went out with her for sure so long time 1. I’m angry that time, why can’t you tell me earlier? I didn’t have any mood to continue SMS. But, to make sure who is that person, I purposely asked you and the answer you give really broke my heart.
& nbsp; I can’t accept her! I know, she is the most impotents person for you. Even when all of your friends leave you, your live are still meaningful with her. The history is repeating again. I can feel that every thoughts flow in my mind just same as what flow in my mind last time. Anyway, this time, I choose to end up our friendship. I think this is the best way! I don’t want SMS with you anymore! I know, this is the most stupid decision I made. However, I’m willing to choose to do so. I know, I will be living tough and suck. Without you, I really do not know how to continue my life. Anyway, I will learn to overcome it! What I want to say just, OUR FRIENSHIP IS ENDED!
& nbsp; Sorry Kelly, I have no choice. I hate her but you love her. That is totally opposite, and I choose to leave you. I hate to share! Last time, when you are quarrel with her, I’m so happy. Nobody shares your caring with me; I’m the only one you care. I don’t know, this is what you let me feel. Everyday wakes up, you will send me a message or I will send for you to greet. Then, after back from school, you will SMS me and we talk about all those things happened in school. We are always joking and that made me really happy. When I’m sad, I will tell you and you will make me happy. However, when you are sad, I keep trying to make you happy. This is the happiest time for me. Anyway, just let them are part of my memories, those messages I will still keep it.
& nbsp; There are one more things to tell you; last night I cut my hand again. This time not other reason but because of you. Last night I’m extremely sad, especially when you wrote “no matter how she is my sis always” and “for me, you are still my friend”. Oh god! Can’t even you have some feeling when we SMS? Or the person SMS with me not you but others? Why are you treating me so cold? Why can’t we even be a good friend but only the normal friend? I’m the jerk! Being fool like you, like an idiot! And the cut on my hand for you, I didn’t know is it worth, just really brings a lot of pain. Maybe it is wrong to cut my hand…
Yours truly,
Kai Hui